isolation diaries
The train I'm on speeds out of the tunnel and onto the Manhattan Bridge. I look out the window and the once traffic jammed road is empty, boats no longer cruising on the east river. Behind the Manhattan and Brooklyn bridge the bright, warm sun is just about to set. My heart flutters and a… Continue reading On The Other Side of the Bridge
I have not forgotten about this blog. In fact, my drafts folder is full half-written posts. I wanted to write and post on this blog for weeks but every time, I start writing and when I'm done I realize I've gone on multiple tangents. But that's how my brain works and instead of trying to… Continue reading I do it to myself
I have realized that I use movies as a form of communication. This is more true with my mom. She and I have a complicated relationship and I find that communication between us is like navigating through a minefield. So, whenever I find a movie that has any resemblance to what my mom and I… Continue reading When I force my mom to watch a movie with me…
If you haven't seen it, "Don't F*** w/Cats" is a true crime documentary series streaming on Netflix. It's about the killer of Jun Lin, Luka Magnotta. Magnotta first began his atrocious acts by filming and uploading himself murdering kittens in horrendous ways. Which all culminate sin him recording and uploading a video of himself killing… Continue reading “Don’t F*** w/Cats” and other thoughts on social media
I've never bought into the significance of a new year. Time is a social construct, in a way. Yes, we age and life moves on that's not something we made up. But graduating college at a certain age, there being an acceptable age to have kids and get married and having your life together by… Continue reading The start of 2020
My next big age milestone is twenty years old. I turn nineteen next March. Knowing this gives me so much anxiety about my life. I have journals from when I was eleven and in it I wrote much about what my life would be like once I was officially an adult. Eleven year old me… Continue reading Anxiety about Time
I was recently told that I should look forward to failing. At the time, about five days ago, I didn’t really understand what that meant. I don’t think I do still. But since then, I’ve talked to many people about failure. During these conversations I’ve had with close friends throughout the week I’ve been vocally… Continue reading Failure
